The Gleam of Moonlight
Saturday, December 19, 2009
choosing the right path...for...my family? friends? nah...MYSELF!~
This has been quite a terrible day for me...Has it? Not terrible actually...just depressing...
I dont know, I'm frustrated...I just dont know what to do. I'm supposed to go to college today and get everything done...submit my application forms....everything...
But, when my mum asks me what do i want to do, it suddenly hit me...
Oh yea, what am I goin to apply later? pharmacy? pharmaceutical? I'm lost all of a sudden...
Lol, what did I do next? I threw a coin...(what the) And it leads me to pharmacy in local Monash. Nope, my mum wants me to go overseas. Why? She wants me to learn to be away from home, be independent, gain experience out there.
So I didn't go to school after all...great~ *sigh*
My aunt called..."hui ching, almost got it! u can still try, it just depends on how the other foreign students do in their exams, u still have a chance"
My cousin told me earlier..."hui ching~~come to Australia~~please?? come la...okay okay? =)"
My friend texted me.."hui ching!!! are you going to uniSA?"
People can't do anything if they have no chances...So I have choice AND chance, but it turned out to be soooo........hard..
A friend:
she bu de sure got de lo..but it might not be somethg bad de..
u will get to see new thgs one..
meet new frens, new challenges
u're not ready to face it..
this kind of situation most of all would have to experience
just the matter of ealier or later
everythg is destined....just do what u can .face the challenge lo my fren
understand or not?
u cannot so weak d anymore, face the fact
i know its hard..but. if u keep fang zhong urself..
it will never help, no one can help u
if u wanna listen to fact
i can tell u..but..really..i couldnt help much in this..
hope u can choose the best for urself
i dunno how the way u grew up
whether u've face all these hard decison making situations before or not..
whether u have been in any tough situation before or not
mayb u did...mayb u did not..u know the best
if u did...u should know...this will make u stronger and u must face it again and again..and more......coz this is your life...u gonna take this....u can do it
if u did not....den..its time to grow up..no longer a small girl anymore...know ya?..there are more challenges...and they are going to make u better only......trust me
den u will be a brand new hui ching the next time i see u in the future..=)
provided..u face it....have faith..
whichever way u going to choose....
when u reach there....u will definitely learn something new......
despite how hard you have to go thru..
definitely somethg is there waiting for u to pick them up..
deep inside......
know or not.....xiao mei mei... (
treat me like a small kid now?)
u are deciding for yourself
not for frens,not for mum,not for cousins,just think for yourself
and i think u are afraid of making decision
u are afraid of the circumstances
find some space for yourself
a quiet space
sit down,relax
and start thinking
what ur hearts wan
UR own heart
no mother
no frens
not cousin
not aunty
just for yourself...den just go for it
whichever way u choose for yourself..its going to be a bright way...
coz its for yourself..
wan be pharmacist den go
wan be kindergarten teacher
den just go
don have to hesistate
they are all the RIGHT decision despite whichever u are choosing
coz u know yourself..u will be doing it with full heart..
no one can force you...
whats the most important thing for you in your life...i think u know....mayb it seems blur...but i m sure if u let ur heart makes the effort...u wil be able to see it
definitely will...open up ur eyes for hearts..
take out the courage to see it
i know its easier to say than to turn it into actions..
but..u have to do it...
coz ur heart is calling u..talking to you
know or not...
peng you..(
thx for treating me as one ;P)
regret or not is just depending on how you see it....
as i said..u will learn somethg...definitely u will...it might not worked out like how u planned to learn...but...u will never come back with empty hands..
Iggy:
actually right
to be honest,
depends on wat u like
n not necessary u tell urself, u MUST be a pharmacist,or a chemist
when ure a pharmacist
u can get ur masters in pharmaceutical
or pharmacology
its related
as long as when u decided, ure happy with wat u decide
thats enough
b passionate bout medicine!!!!
i'll buy my stock from u =) (
lol, thx so much, will call u if i dont have any business)
hahaha, thx a lot guys...i know a lot of you have given me great advices and i really appreciate that. But still, i'm always hesitating...being INDECISIVE...yes, dat's what teenagers do all the time~! I'm not sure whether this is the right course for me. Hopefully I can get everything sorted out and....cry out MELBOURNE, HERE I COME~!
ps: I'm definitely goin to miss this place, my family and the friends i've made here ( u know who
u r ) if i'm really leaving....
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